I could almost forget your cruelty today,
then I remember that I did forget.
For so long, I forgave this streak of rage
and meanness in you,
that now to remember is almost like a dream.
Everything that hurt was buried deep in me.
As it emerges I cannot restrain my weeping.
I can't leave the house for weeping.
It comes upon me like a huge wave
and floods the floor beneath me.
I am standing one minute and on the floor the next.
Your vicious words fall out of the closet in my head...
they are spilling and spilling towards me.
I have to let them out and flow away forever,
but it seems impossible.