then I remember that I did forget

I could almost forget your cruelty today, 
then I remember that I did forget. 
 For so long, I  forgave this streak of rage 
and meanness in you, 
that now to remember is almost like a dream.  
Everything that hurt was buried deep in me. 
 As it emerges I cannot restrain my weeping.  
I can't leave the house for weeping.  
It comes upon me like a huge wave 
and floods the floor beneath me.  
I am standing one minute and on the floor the next.  
Your vicious words fall out of the closet in my head... 
they are spilling and spilling towards me.  
I have to let them out and flow away forever, 
but it seems impossible.