7.22.2017

1123 ex post facto reality

I.  "I am he
as you are he
and we are all together".

II.  
I walked down this dirt road
in the dark to siddhartha
and I told him 
you are not my father; I renounce you. 

So, now 
in the golden flicker
of candlelight 
reflecting 
in the water bowls 
in every dark room of my mind
is it my own fault, 
I wonder. 

this could be 1800's new orleans 
I can smell the jasmine 
and feel the white lace dress 
and the binding tightness 
of the spell of righteousness...

of all the places I have been
new orleans was the most 
and least free. 

but I digress,
as always.

III.  bodhisattva

in my youth 
I was an 
optimist,
perhaps now 
I am merely a storm cloud.

yet, 
rainbows come of such things.

IV.  
this is the section about Descartes.

I think. 

V.  
In this post facto reality
I've got going 
truth is, 
I am the same person I was 
the day I first realized who I am. 

VI.
all the many and the none
I walked backwards to get here. 

"but it's all right ma, it's life, and life only"

VII.
that
nautilus shell 
was a birthday gift
I cant recall who gave it to me
but I remember 
suddenly now 
after 40 years
they said 
"It's You, 
or actually, right there in the center is you."
1123 
my birthday 
the first 4 numbers of the Fibonacci sequence

if we apply the golden ratio 
we can see how it is...

a logarithmic spiral. . .. ...  









8.07.2016

A Work in Progress  (for Walt)

I remember America... 
when I went to the edge of the road and looked down
a long long way to the end where the road turned and you could see the dust rise up
as a truck came towards our house...

And I remember my great grandfather sitting in his garden on his aluminum lawn chair
with his shorts and his undershirt on a 90 degree day
and the fan in the bedroom where I slept with the window open listening to the sound of the cicadas until I thought my ears should just abandon me and fly away to a silent place...
we didn't have an air conditioner in 1972....
 I remember the general store and the hard butterscotch candy sticks and the dark molasses paddles
better than chocolate, nothing compares...
That store is still there and so are the paddles
cuz candy doesn't go out of style and it reminds us that we are all children.

but where is everything else?

like,  effort...
we raked our leaves without a noisy blower in our brains killing the sound of the day...
and swept the floor - with a - broom
and had a work bench and used it to do - work.
no one called a handy man cuz we were the handy men.

What happened to America?
we are buying ourselves to death and I am so disgusted 
with the money lenders and the money changers I want to tip the tables...
this land was my temple, you fuckers 
who the hell did you sell my America to?
not me.
I see the places where we used to live and where you used to live and there's nobody left
the towns are replaced by paper condos and paper mansions that have no soul
shoddy paper garbage poorly made save a bundle cheat a bunch of dimwits poop

I hate this America
this ugly
useless
productless
prideless
greedy
futile America
that you left us... to rot in.
we worked and breathed 
the foul air 
for you
and then you shipped it out to somewhere else to 
kill some other poor suckers and give them 98 % less pay because you didn't want to fix the problems and do the right thing you just fired 10s of thousands of real live people and moved your filthy mines and factories to places where you can still pollute and pay people shit wages with no health care and abuse them SHAME ON YOU shame on you... I hate corporate decisions I hate the ugly fat cat America smoking its cigar in the face of a pregnant Filipino I hate that America

gone are the days of  the extended family and hard work and succeeding and pride and ethic
now we're left with a colossal kardashian lack of self worth  
whining about our Epic Uselessness
I want it to dry up
explode disappear 
useless 
worthless 
talentless bachelor millionaire survivor dancer big hair toddler princesses
and their fat hideous exploiter parents
I hate that hideous America 

I hate hate hate this petty delusional fat ugly videophile America

I want to rake my leaves and walk to the market down the street ( I want to get my muscles from real life not hot pilates-yoga twice a week, no, 3 times, no... um,  actually, I think I am addicted to it... I think I might have an addiction to my trainer.. my shopping ..my kindle.. my facebook.. my second life, my ? ..second life? ugh what the fuck is wrong with a culture that has to give itself a multiple clinical diagnosis as an excuse for being selfish hoarding wasters?)

I want to walk to the market down the street
instead of driving 15 miles to the costco for a deal on 25 lbs of beef and a ketchup bottle bigger than my head.

I want to live in the land of pride in craftsmanship
love of the land and the people
not the wealth and the decadence 
I want my America to shine from its generosity and good sense
not reek with the stench of dead rats and  5 year old garbage emanating from the suburban hoarders houses
1 in 25 people ?!
what?! really?
really.
4% of the population
stinks with the reek of stuff - made in some sweat shop some where...
else.....
stuff
stuff stuffing up their houses, their bedrooms, their thoughts, their will to live, their loves, their families 
stuff stuff
stuff
stuff
can I say it enuff?!!!? 
I hate the new America. I hate the new fat destitute PTSD porn star barbie doll soldier America

I don't want to go back ... however romantic 
I want to go forward
I want to make new, real, natural, let me make that very clear, NATURAL,  good, healthy products in our country made by Americans  to be sustainable and free and clean and loving to the world 
I want a new America that isn't addicted to Ease and lethargy and apathy and sloth and greed
I want to be a new America that loves health and joy and fairness 
and sees to it that their friends and neighbors learn from their shining example of altruism and truth and honesty.

Righteousness, religion, revolution: And Why the Enlightenment, the founding fathers and Science brought forth a new nation...

A long time ago, not really when you Think about it... A few centuries ago ...

A few centuries ago there was a time period that is now known as the enlightenment, when observers of natural events had cataloged, researched and created scientific thought and practice, when others had observed society at large, and people specifically, and compiled data to form new social structures that included fairness and equality as their Primary Tenets. It was a time of great need in a world of much greed and tyranny of kings and savage businessmen... It was a time when religion was corrupt and oppressive and seething with politic and hatred... A time when the world could be HAD.

Now is also such a time... and our closed minded idea of living in an advanced Age is exposed to brutal truth. We are being Had.

Slavery is rampant and practiced everywhere Still, it Never went away.
Religions are petty and puerile and mean and selfish.
Politics are festering piles of boiling diarrhea.
Governments are owned by corporations.
The world is a cesspool of polluted filth.

This is the true turning point of humanity.

We either have to change in a dramatic positive way immediately or perish.

The founding fathers brought forth a new nation for the betterment of mankind, not freedom of religion per se, that is merely a tenet, not a basis! The righteousness of fundamentalist christians here in the United States is not based on reality. The founders were against governance by the church and tyranny. Righteousness has no place in government. Freedom of religion is just a basic right, not a podium on which to oppress people!
I mean, How can any human person in the year 2014, or 5776... How can Any One believe that they are gods chosen person and that they have a right and an obligation to convert people to their fairy tale rule book or condemn them or, worse, to harm and kill them for not believing? ! Shocking does not adequately describe the preposterousness of this idea!!

Populations have been revolting against tyrants and oppressors for so long that One would hope - that in general - Everyone should be aware that Injustice and oppression exist, they are unfair and wicked, they cause all the suffering in the world and they need to be avoided, and put down and deposed at all times. It is The FOUNDING PRINCIPLE OF THIS NATION THAT WE ARE ALL EQUAL HERE AND THAT WE DEMAND OUR NATION TO BE JUST AND FAIR AND COMPASSIONATE. (We have yet to truly live up to it though.)

Fair and Equal is the Standard to which we Aspire. Over the years the people who actually read our foundational documents and study the laws and have integrity, have expanded the rights and freedom of many oppressed people.

BUT

BUT, IT DOES NOT FOLLOW...
It does NOT Follow that in This Nation of Free and Equal, Anti Tyranny, Anti Oppression, This Revolutionary, Enlightenment Era, Free Thinking, Nation of Tolerance and Humanitarianism... That we would EVER EVER EVER  EVER Allow fundamentalists to write laws, bribe representatives, steal elections, revoke rights, infiltrate our public opinions, defame and punish people, oppress our citizens, nor allow them to harm and kill those they don't agree with.  It's bad enough that we allowed industrialists and now corporations and war opportunists to run the world forever

But that is exactly what is happening, here and everywhere.  Christian Fundamentalism alone is swelling to an infectious tsunami sized wave of intolerance hate fear blame and Yes, killing that can Not be Allowed at All. NO. Never.

The righteous religious population has swallowed a lie, and they are puking it up on the rest of us. It makes me sick! their motto of helpless ignorant non understanding is this: Ours is not to reason why, ours is but to do and die.... because god said so. It's ridiculous.

I do Not believe in fairies. And I am so happy to be free of such nonsense really. People have the horrible tendency to revert to childish thinking, or passive denial of responsibility to question authority. During the enlightenment when the alleged founding fathers (and their wives, sisters, mothers, girl friends and female acquaintances) THOUGHT About REALITY, they Most Certainly Did Question Authority!!

I ask you now to speak of this to others, to find a book with the letters of Benjamin Franklin, John Adams Thomas Jefferson or to read Montesquieu, Rousseau or the later genius Bertrand Russell... and THINK HARDER. NOW.




2.21.2015

street theater more accessible than obscure blogsites

Violence and greed is consuming us, and every living thing. No one is immune to the horror unfolding every day. We will all perish if we do not totally acknowledge and move to dismantle it.

How do We achieve a complete harmony between all living beings? ... if we still have despicable wealth and widespread untenable poverty, religious hatred, cultural hatred, national wars ...
How? It's Impossible.

Yet, even as I write the word impossible, I know somehow, that it is absolutely not impossible.

Total willing willful happy Harmony IS Absolutely Possible.

Obeyance to religious doctrine and passivity just won't do it though. Violence and domination are completely wrong. Philosophy... meh.

Instagram? Twitter? facebook? blogspot?! more like... but not.

I think I'm going to go out on a limb and say Performance Art.
Like the Crucifixion or the parting of the red sea... but you know, with no actual violence.

Demonstration.  Act-ivism,  Performance Activism.

In centuries past, puppet theaters traveled the countryside propagandizing the illiterate... it's a proven method.

Protesting in public is a form of performance art. Occupy Wall Street is performance art.

Performance protesting/activism is the way to go.

12.07.2014

CORPORATE COLONIZERS ARE KILLING THE PLANET AND WE ARE LETTING THEM

Just thinking about the King Model...
(not the noble one of MLK Jr),
the stupid one on which we base everything that exists in our murky little human reality...
The King Model
wherein the King rules all he surveys, he conquers, he reigns, he slays
at any and all expense to everyone else
we think about ourselves this way personally, spiritually
we think of the family this way
our social groups
our societies
our governments
our religion/god
the leader rules
everyone else does as they are told...

It's the much written about discussion of feminists and anthropologists of our time.

PATRIARCHY
Survival of the Fittest
Man's Dominion over the lesser animals
GOD
Kingdoms
Empires
Armies
Dictatorships
Fascism
Corporations
Religions
Cults
Advertising Agencies
Pimps

The King Model
seeks to Win.
seeks to gain
seeks to be right
seeks power
seeks money
seeks things....
to rule to gain to hold to clutch to

You better let go of it or it will ruin you... exactly as It has the entire world and everything in it.

So, here's the thing. We have got to realize that the current model of proprietary behavior and Ownership and all of our concepts from DAY ONE are so Flawed and so Integral to the destruction of the earth that we absolutely MUST STOP adhering to, participating in, and believing any and ALL of these ideas and methods of living and thinking.

Even the Pope, of the city of silliness and vanity beyond measure, has renounced those things COMPLETELY. Take a lesson from Francis. (Or, Jorge.)

Our whole society worldwide is based on a lowbrow, archaic and arcane idea that he who has the most gold or the newest iphone wins. No matter how useless and cruel and filthy the system was, is or will become, we keep using the same model believing that "That's the way it is". Disgusting. And Quite Literally RETARDED.

Toss your litter out the window suck down your coca cola eat your burger pick your scabs and shake your fist at the sun for starving people in Africa. That's the old paradigm at work in our culture today... think of the most ignorant fucker you know and then try to figure out the One good thing you could say to him/her today to bring them one step closer to actually CHANGING THEIR MIND.

THINK ON THESE THINGS.

CHOOSE TO BEGIN TO LEARN TO BELIEVE THAT YOU ARE GOING TO BE THE SALVATION OF ALL HUMANITY AND EVERY SPECIES AND THE ENTIRE PLANET RIGHT NOW AT YOUR OWN HAND WITH ME AND EVERYONE ELSE.

Again, I am Asking you to repeat with me:

I CHOOSE TO BEGIN TO LEARN TO BELIEVE THAT I AM THE SALVATION OF ALL OF HUMANITY ALL SPECIES AND THE ENTIRE EARTH, RIGHT NOW, TODAY, WITH YOU AND EVERYONE ELSE.

Say It. Maybe it will work. Maybe it's just the thing that we all need to do to start the amazing renewal of the earth and humanity. It's a possibility. What could it hurt? Just try it out. Think about it.

Now say it again....

Thank You.
You're Welcome.

********
Carl Sandburg once wrote, in a children's story called "Three boys with jugs of molasses and secret ambitions", from the book Rootabaga Stories, "A secret ambition is a little creeper that creeps saying - come and find me, come and find me".

If you feel a special sort of excitement or awe or fear or like you might cry when you read the words telling you that you are are the salvation of the world, I just want you to know that it is really really extra super good for you to feel that feeling. Hold Onto That.


8.24.2014

Object Lesson

Sad days are upon us... difficult days. I look at myself and I know I am not physically strong enough to march and rage against the machine and get arrested protesting every fucking atrocity in our sick and crumbling nation... We are so foolish to presume that we have progressed as humans.

I love this world. It is so beautiful. I really love life and all the wonderful things that happen in our lives.

But the simple and true things of this world are hidden now by the nonsense of the societies we have created.

Do you want your life back? Do you want the earth back? Do you even realize that it is being taken from you?

I propose an object lesson. A social experiment.

Let us all do something every day for the rest of our lives that promotes the well being of the planet, of our neighbors and ourselves. Let us all reach out beyond the realm of our insular paranoid silly selfish greedy petty lives and make a safe place in this wretched world of despair and separation.

Make small talk with someone you would normally never speak to. Say hello to every person you see. Give something away to a really needy person. Learn to speak another language. Buy books for a school library in the poor part of your region. Buy blankets and coats and give them to a shelter. Walk down the street to that very old lady's or man's house and bring some fruit or flowers and give them your phone number. Offer someone a ride. Stop buying juice in plastic bottles. Tell someone who doesn't understand about pesticides and organics why its so important. Grow a garden. Don't use miracle grow. Buy organic seeds. Tell a joke to the guy waiting on a line with you. Tell someone they look good. Be friendly despite your own problems. Be candid about your own flaws. Tell someone off who is being a real prick to you or someone else with very polite yet searing words and take their photo with your phone. Smile. Bring more food with you and share it generously. Buy some random person dinner, or lunch or Water. And be their friend. Tell them about this whole thing, about taking the fate of our world away from the corporations and the politicians and the bankers and the greedy haters  and the fearful zealots.... by being friends with everyone and by banding together across every possible barrier until the whole population of the world is unified together to protect the earth and the kind people and animals in it.

Begin to Believe that You are the Salvation of the World because YOU ARE.

7.26.2013

We are Complicit Because WE Believe that we Have No Power.

I want us all to realize the limitations of our religions and our beliefs and our cultural conditioning so that we can begin to Grow in an important way. A way that will enable us to Be the Ones who can and will and are changing the world.

The people out there fighting, for the world to be a better place in every aspect of reality, Know that they have to step out of their own limitations to do what is required of them to succeed, to even try to succeed.
They know that they have to psych themselves into doing seemingly crazy risky things to get the issue in the news, to get people to pay attention. So Many people are unconscious, brainwashed, subverted, perverted from truth, goodness, kindness... and they have no idea how perverse they are. We ourselves are deluded and perverse. I myself am cynical and depressed and free falling most of the time. I am writing this to talk myself into doing what needs to be done to make the world a better place, to stop the poisoning of the earth, etc.

We all need to reinforce in our selves and others that we Must do what needs to be done Now. If you have a strong faith that promotes this behavior that is great. But most people have religious and social limitations that tell them that they can't achieve anything or that it is not acceptable to participate in radical activism. Most people are afraid to be arrested, myself included, at a rally or blockade. I am not necessarily suggesting that we should be arrested as a solution either.

What I want to impart to you with this new self concept mantra that I am evolving:
CHOOSE TO BEGIN TO LEARN TO BELIEVE THAT YOU ARE THE ONE WHO IS THE SALVATION OF ALL OF HUMANITY ALL SPECIES AND THE ENTIRE EARTH, RIGHT NOW, TODAY, WITH ME AND EVERYONE ELSE....
  Is that THIS IS Possible, and with this mantra You can prepare yourself;  We can prepare Ourselves for The Day When It Will Be Necessary to Be This Strong.  Because That Day is coming, That Day IS Here.

Most religions are based on supernatural unprovable stories with large judgmental punishing deities that they are taught to embrace and to fear. I want to say that this is really not the point anymore, largely because the Sinners are raping the earth, poisoning the air, soil and water, charging us for it too! The Sinners are robbing the poor to feed their fat faces. The Sinners are preaching gospels, and chanting prayers while they kill their enemies. The Sinners are hiding behind God and religion while they starve the innocent and poison the meek. The Sinners are sullying the religions and twisting them into hideous pretzels while the innocent and the meek are looking away, afraid to speak, unable to fight the powerful wealthy abusers.  We, the meek, the disenfranchised, the poor, the average, the middle class... are not the real sinners anymore. Were we ever? Sin is contextual, folks.

I ask you to entertain the idea that we are not sinners, or meek, or less, or just followers, just congregants. I want us to entertain the idea, the core belief, that we are masters of our own destiny. More than that, Masters of the destiny of the earth and of humanity as a whole, NOW. With No god, no religion, no doctrine to Divide us.

That is the part that is the most important. There can be no divide, No differences between us. We all must be equal with no god to divide us, no ideal to divide us. No Doctrine, and most especially no Messiah who is going to come and fix everything.
Because WE DON'T HAVE TIME TO WAIT FOR THAT.

The only tenets should be:
Equality and Human Rights for all people, 
Sustainable Land and resources for all Species, 
Humane treatment for all species, 
No resource stripping, 
No private-profit ownership of national resources most especially water,  
No Pollution or overt damage to the Environment, 
No Land grabbing, 
No Religious Oppression. 
No War. 

We are totally brainwashed to believe that this can't become manifest by our weird misunderstanding of free enterprise, especially in this country. It is ridiculous that a person can profit-own an aquifer! I really don't mind land ownership, (but how'd you get that land?)  BUT Water? Sure, you can have your own well on your own land but can you own an aquifer? Serious question. Serious. And you, We, should be really interested in the answer. We should also be interested in the utter disregard that gas companies have for said well/land ownership. We should be Disturbed by it. It should make us lose sleep every night until we can't rest until this problem is resolved on the side of the innocent people who have had their rights, their land, their water devalued and poisoned by the powerful. But that level of awareness and compassion is Not happening enough in this world.

The greedy powerful corporations are running rampant on this earth and Our Attitude of meekness and helplessness Is Destroying OUR Planet.

We are Complicit Because WE Believe that we Have No Power.

So, Again, I am Asking you to repeat with me:

I CHOOSE TO BEGIN TO LEARN TO BELIEVE THAT I AM THE SALVATION OF ALL OF HUMANITY ALL SPECIES AND THE ENTIRE EARTH, RIGHT NOW, TODAY, WITH YOU AND EVERYONE ELSE.

Say It. Maybe it will work. Maybe it's just the thing that we all need to do to start the amazing renewal of the earth and humanity. It's a possibility. What could it hurt? Just try it out. Think about it.
Please.

Now say it again....

Thank You.
You're Welcome.






7.25.2013

On child marriage, child slavery, climate disaster, and the end of the world as we know it.

Hundreds of years ago children were abused regularly. 20 years ago children were abused regularly. And today children are abused regularly. We used to like to think that had stopped and that everything is all rosy in the world... we, Americans... westerners. And we used to like to think that slavery was abolished so it doesn't exist anymore any where... But None of this is true. People aren't just starving to death in Bangladesh. They are starving to death in your neighbors house, locked in a closet. And they are being married off (read: sold), not just in Yemen where this poor 11 year old girl in today's facebook news is from, not just in India but all over the world, even here in America.
 http://www.upworthy.com/a-little-girls-moment-of-courage-captured-on-camera-is-the-reason-we-need-to-look-after-each-other-2?g=2

By ignorant poverty stricken fundamentalists... And not so ignorant, not so poor, not so religious people, too. Abused, neglected, sold, yes SOLD , and prostituted, and you name it... it is happening. Thailand, Viet Nam, Cambodia, Russia, Sudan, Chad, Mexico, Peru, China, India, Sri Lanka, Nepal, Iraq, Yemen, Iran, Pakistan, Afghanistan, Kurdistan, America.  This is just countries that I have read about recently without trying to research at all.

So what?

Well, in keeping with what I am trying to teach myself to do and be, with all of you watching and reading along... I have to say that this Matters a lot. It matters because it is the truth we all have to face in order to wake up to the reality that we are the ones who will change the world. The time is long past when anyone can believe that "someone else will do something about that." And just because you are not the one out on the street or chasing down the child abuser with your camera and your sword, you have to get behind the idea that you would, you will, you can, you want to and you are in spiritual allegiance with the one who does. At any given moment you will have read and seen just enough information and truth and raw reality to finally be moved (and oh holy holy, facebook and other social media are bringing that day closer and closer and closer...) you will finally be moved to accept your position, your true power, your right, your responsibility to be the salvation of the world.

What do I really mean by that? And what is my intention behind saying this over and over again?

Well, let's just say that we all just continue to think about ourselves in the same way forever that we always have. With insecurities or bad things people said about us or critical voices or guilt or apathy...
What will happen then? NOTHING MUCH.
But if we teach ourselves every day that we ARE the ones who will change the world... over and over and over in the mirror every morning, in the car, at work, on the bus, at the gas station, standing in line, watering the lawn, sweeping the floor: I am the one who will change the world.  I AM THE ONE WHO WILL CHANGE THE WORLD  say it. Say It. I dare you.

Maybe your compassion for children and poor and enslaved people wont tip the scale for you. Maybe the climate change imminent destruction of the earth is what will do it for you. Maybe one of my posts will finally break your apathy meter. Maybe you need 10 posts from me a day maybe you need just 2 more before you finally say to yourself... I AM THE ONE WHO IS THE SALVATION OF ALL HUMANITY, ALL SPECIES AND THE ENTIRE PLANET RIGHT NOW TODAY.

And I am just as powerless and feeble and useless as you. I am writing these things to wake myself up to the truth, that I am the salvation of the world, with you and everyone else.
I hope that you get it. I hope that you can understand what I am going for here. It's a mantra. It's a prayer. It's a chant. It's a resistance anthem. It is a mindset. It is a philosophy. It is a battle cry. It is a heart song. A vision quest. A wish, a dream... anything new and different has started as a crazy dream and yet we have this amazing little box of light with all the known knowledge of the universe here in our hands ...

Anything IS Possible.
So, Say It. I Dare you. I double dog Dare you.

I AM THE ONE WHO IS THE SALVATION OF ALL HUMANITY, ALL SPECIES AND THE ENTIRE PLANET, RIGHT NOW.

I am saying it with you.





7.24.2013

PTSD, and the Redemption

I am sitting here in my air conditioning... thinking about the world.

The north pole is a lot warmer this year, with more open water than ever instead of ice floes. I saw a photograph of a tornado they claimed was 4 miles wide. The southern states are restricting voting rights. People are being arrested for trying to change things for the better. Plastic is everywhere and driving me crazy. Crazy. I think about it constantly. The birds and fish and dolphin bellies all filled with little bits of lethal plastic.

At the bottom of all of these horrors is greed, and hate.

What can be done? How in the world will this stop?

I mean it could just go on this way, until the end, the horrible end, the disastrous end.

But, what about stopping it before that horror?
What about stopping it?

How can we stop greed and hate? and all their ugly repercussions...

I mean stop it forever.

At the basis of this question is optimism.

At the basis of this question is a fundamental belief.

It is deeper and more reverent that anything written or touted by all the religious and non religious, past and present.

The story of Adam tries in vain to tell it. But, the truth is not that we were thrown out of paradise for trying to know truth, but instead, that we have not entered it because we haven't grasped the truth yet. Not in the weird Buddhist enlightenment, all is illusion, bullshit sense though, but in a very clear tangible way; we are right here now and this is real.

We are right here now and this is real.
WWJD?  WWBD?

They would be so pissed off.

SO Pisssssed Off!

The orthodox Jews have this concept of mitzvah; for every good deed you do you are bringing the time of the Meshiach closer... but they ignore and justify using millions of plastic utensils and styrofoam plates.... (that is exempt because it is more important for them to be kosher than it is to stop wasting and polluting.)

Strange values. I think that preparing the way for the messiah includes cleaning and caring for the planet. This is everyone's planet, not just one person or group, and don't forget all the animals you are killing every day... because you can't mix meat and milk or you have to have a new lexus. Whatever your weird motivation is in this life... IT IS BULLSHIT.

THAT'S RIGHT I AM TELLING YOU NOW THAT EVERY MATERIAL THING YOU THINK IS IMPORTANT, AND EVEN YOUR ESOTERIC, LESS TANGIBLE WANTS AND NEEDS
 ARE BULLSHIT.

I have been sitting here in my air conditioning, BORED OUT OF MY MIND, and kind of worried about that. I don't have a car and I live in the boonies so I have a lot of time on my hands... what's your excuse?

Anyway, I had been writing a lot, but then in May I just stopped. I haven't written a word. I am overwhelmed by the state of the world and by the idea that I alone have the power to change it all. I am in shock over that knowledge. It sounds idiotic. It sounds megalomaniacal. But I mean, you alone have the power to change the entire world forever, and so do I and everyone else... and that is so, SO Shocking to us... We just can't handle it at all. So we sit in our air conditioning, and watch netflix and facebook and youtube filling ourselves with all the knowledge of all of the known universe.. and Do Nothing.

This is not to say that all of you do nothing ... no, I know that you are thinkers and talkers and activists and readers and recyclers...

But you are also in shock, traumatic shock.

I know, because I am in traumatic shock EVERY DAY and I know the signs.

It is amazing how much we actually do, in the condition we are in. But we are tired from running after the brass (read: plastic) ring... and trying to be good recyclers etc.

I once thought that emotional exhaustion was the worst. But spiritual exhaustion is worse.
I am both emotionally and spiritually exhausted. And so are you no matter what you say or think or feel to the contrary. At this point in our spiritual evolution, we are all as traumatised as a starving, emaciated, orphaned baby orangutan found in the tread of a giant tractor in a deforested rain forest/palm oil plantation.

We are no longer Bedouin nomads fearing enslavement, or filthy malnourished illiterate beggars who need religion and fear of God. .... In our country we are all geniuses and kings in comparison to the first Jews and the first Christians and the first Buddhists, and most of the world has more access to knowledge and information than EVER. We are in a new evolutionary period of spiritual awareness and development. And it is much more demanding of us.

All of the religions of the world failed to lead us to redemption and salvation and world peace. They fail across the board!!! Why? Because they are Divisive!! And persecutory, AND Limited, and exclusive and excluding, and righteous and unbelievable and require proof and lineages, and supernatural bushes and dragons and messiahs and apocalypses and revelations and prophesies and nonsense, ad infinitum. It's old crazy bullshit claiming God said this and that and God told me but not you and God this and Buddha said this (read: Corporeal Existence) is all just going to pass away or God will make it disappear and God will save us, blah blah blah bullshit... women can't wear revealing clothes, they can't be priests, they can't be rabbis, even the Bahai's blew it on women and homosexuals.... Religions Blew It.
Soooo...
It is OUT OF THEIR HANDS NOW.

I, Personally, am taking it out of their hands. They can follow me, and you, but they can't lead anymore, not ever again.

Again, I ask you... What can we do to take greed and hatred out of the human experience permanently?

Realize that you are not a barbarian, you are not going to die if your neighbor lives, you will not be struck by lightning if you fornicate or go to town unchaperoned....

The foolish nonsense that threatens us through religious oppression has brought us to a point of disgusting hatred and greed. The good tenets of Judaism are outweighed by their exclusivity, the good tenets of Christianity are far outweighed by their pedophilia and homophobia and Papal wealth, the good tenets of Islam are far Far outweighed by their xenophobic hatred and gender oppression and sectarianism. The good tenets of Buddhism are outweighed by their ridiculous concept of this reality being transient and illusory and therefore what? That just gives us All an undeserved Pass to not care if we fail to do the right thing.

NONE OF US DESERVES A PASS IF WE FAIL TO DO THE RIGHT THING.
I DON'T WANT JESUS' OR BUDDHA'S FORGIVENESS AND I DON'T WANT TO LIVE TO SEE THE DAY OF GODS REDEMPTION.

I WANT MY REDEMPTION NOW AT MY OWN HANDS.

I WANT THE SALVATION OF ALL MANKIND AND ALL SPECIES AND THE ENTIRE EARTH, NOW, AT MY OWN HANDS.

RIGHT NOW, RIGHT THIS VERY SECOND.
BECAUSE I AM EXHAUSTED. BECAUSE I AM TRAUMATISED. BECAUSE ALL OF US ARE SICK AND TIRED AND ABOUT TO FALL DOWN AND FAIL.....

HOW DO I MAKE THIS A REALITY? HOW DO I ALONE BRING ABOUT THE SALVATION OF ALL HUMANITY TODAY?

THAT IS EXHAUSTING.

Can I say to you now that I Know this is true and possible and my true destiny? without your scorn? disbelief, laughter, rejection? Yeah, I can. Because it is your true destiny as well. We are actually the salvation of humanity. You and Me.  Believe this now, and forever with every fiber of your being. You are the salvation and the way. You are the new dawn, the redemption of the entire planet. You and you alone, and me, and everyone else. Know it, feel it think it Be it all day every day, even when you are tired and sad and lonely. remember that you are the way and the life you are becoming that which you are becoming you are the reckoning you are the light you are love you are You Are. And so am I and everyone else. When you meet someone in your day remember that they are the saviour, the messiah, the prophet, the true and only god, the buddha, the redeemer and so are you and everyone else. This, as far as I know, is the highest form that one can exist as in all human concepts, so it must be the first and the last and only definition of A Being, any being, ALL BEINGS. The elephant the snake the termite the Buddha all must be on the same level or there can be no real Equality ... and definitely no Redemption.

(yes, I kill spiders sometimes, and bacteria, and I eat chicken, and vegetables; one heavy discourse at a time please.)

There is a deep flaw in our concept of ourselves that has been perpetuated for thousands of years, that we are inherently flawed. This is not true. Everything we do is a choice. A Choice. Perhaps circumstantial, but a choice none the less. That is how we came up with the idea of redemption to begin with. The belief that we are flawed and punished, banished out of Eden, in sin... unenlightened, etc. But We Are Not Flawed. We Are The Messiah, Every One of us is Equal to each other and to the highest form which is God, and the lowest form... parameceum? bozons?  You know it... I know it... we all know it.
So, Accept Your Power, Your True Identity.

Choose to believe that you and I and everyone else are the saviours of the earth. And Choose to be that deep in your soul, and Choose to DO IT. CHOOSE TO SAVE THE PLANET WITH ME AND EVERYONE ELSE... even if you do nothing today and nobody you know does anything tomorrow, we are beginning to Learn to Believe that we are going to be... TO BE THE REDEMPTION RIGHT NOW THIS SECOND AT OUR OWN HAND.

CHOOSE TO BEGIN TO LEARN TO BELIEVE THAT YOU ARE GOING TO BE THE REDEMPTION OF ALL HUMANITY AND EVERY SPECIES AND THE ENTIRE PLANET RIGHT NOW AT YOUR OWN HAND WITH ME AND EVERYONE ELSE.

2.24.2013

We are going to have to live with less

I remember
when I went to the edge of the road
and looked down to where it turned
and I could see the dust rise up...
I remember my great grandpa sitting in his garden
on his aluminum lawn chair
in his shorts and his undershirt on a 90 degree day
and the fan in the bedroom where I slept
with the window open
listening to the sound of the cicadas until
I thought my ears should just abandon me and fly away...
The world was real. It was tangibly, viscerally Real.

Now the airconditioned paper houses have no soul
shoddy garbage, poorly made
filled with crap from walmart
in this ugly, useless
greedy, futile America

Because we wanted to keep the air and water clean
Big Business moved their filthy factories
to places where they can still pollute and
pay low wages...
Ugly fat cat America smoking its cigar in the face of a pregnant Filipino,
flicking it's ashes back in the faces of the workers they abandoned...
Here.
Now we're left with a colossal Kardashian lack of self worth
whining about our Epic Uselessness...
buying everything in sight with every plastic card under the sun
talentless bachelor millionaire
big hair toddler princesses,
Hideous America
fat anorexic PTSD porn star America
obsessed with electronic appendages,
festering in apathy and greed.