8.11.2021

Sensability

 We take it for granted

this higher reasoning thing,

Not everyone has it

millions are not so blessed

with A-level heads, in more ways 

than one.

but I am cursed with

various aspects of

"too clever for your own good"

Hyper vigilance among them.

It used to run my show.

down to the insomnia and sleep deprivation.

Thankfully I have learned to ignore it.

I actually sleep now

despite the horrors of the world

and the things I havent done 

and the thing I should have said.

It was all about the lack of 

Love, oh and the cruelty.

Once I finally understood

that most people are 

pathologically unable to love 

in any semblance of a 

functioning quality -

I was cured of my despair.

and I do really think

it is higher reasoning

that determines us.

not the usual way we think

like a crow uses tools,

or a cat looks questioningly 

into a mirror for days or weeks 

until finally he's settled on 

some answer,

No. It is a thing not easily accessed, 

imperceptibly deep.

most of life doesnt require it of us.

It all just Goes by

even the most difficult and frustrating things

are basic.

No, it's something else

that brings a person 

into the strange ethereal 

other worldly

higher reasoning

that I'm thinking of.

A Tolkein kind of a place

where the heart is so connected

to the mind that flowers grow

in Mordor.





4.30.2020

2020, perspective


I dont know about you but this isolation period in all of our lives at once has really deeply affected me. I didnt think it would really. But lo, it has.

I think hourly on things like who am I, what matters, why are people so foolish, what will we be moving forward from this, are other people as deeply affected as I am, what are they thinking, is it hurting us, is it making us better, what about the loss, where is the mourning, why isnt it public, i am upset by this, i am in mourning, i am not even worried anymore, encouragement? hope? what about loss? has anyone addressed this loss, folks its friggin deep.

Those of us who are stuck at home are avoiding the underlying feeling that the world is ending by watching a steady stream of netflixhuluprime and making beercheesecrochetpaintings... but I find myself crying over a myriad of newly sentimental things like rock concert videos and driving past the pizza parlor and hearing an editorial on NPR about how parents should let themselves off the hook for failing at being their childs teacher assistant and managing remote learning.  and then theres the obvious thing were all trying to avoid, the government. what a bag of dicks. Its devastating. On so many levels, we are all going through an intense period of loss.

Put in perspective, our supermarkets diminished supply is nothing like post world war II Russia. Its nothing like the great depression. Our death toll, even the worlds death toll is not(yet) anything even remotely close to the death toll from starvation and malnutrition every year...
FYI, that is this number:    9,000,000.
And even after all this, our displaced persons number in the US will be an atrocity, but it will never come close to the number of displaced people currently living in camps worldwide...
That number is this:    70,000,000.

So, if you read this, you are probably not suffering. But on some level we are all suffering. Because if the above numbers exist, then the world is suffering and by extention so are we. But this steady stream of stuff stands in the way of us seeing or knowing that others are suffering, and we are content not knowing and not having to feel that ongoing loss.

Please let just one minute of this loss filter through to your consciousness. I swear to you, you will live through it. But you will also change. And that change needs to happen on a gigantic scale pretty damn soon, or we are absolutely doomed to see all the numbers increase.

Netflix can not save us from the catastrophic failure of our hearts to acknowledge our grief.

9.22.2019

What MORATORIUM NOW Means and why you should use it as a comment

MORATORIUM NOW  should be an International  DEMAND.
MORATORIUM NOW is an action to Suspend all oil, gas, fossil fuel extraction, coal and mineral mining worldwide except for limited uses in medical and humanitarian needs. Limiting fossil fuel extraction, plastics production and steel production, limiting all metal/ore smelting and production. Brownout type reductions on smelting and refining. Banning clear cuts and "controlled" burns. Redetermining usage / output regulations making them strictly Scheduled to Give Relief to Environmental Systems (ie. Air, Water, Soil, Forests, Wildlife, Indigenous and Local Communities.) Limiting Shipping, in all forms, of all fossil fuels, coal, mined ores. The moratorium is extended to chemical production as well. Adhesives, paints, solvents etc. I would like to see non essential plastics be Banned, ie: toys and other useless items and most especially plastic packaging of all kinds especially bottles. And the final piece is for waste. NO Waste can be shipped or dumped in the sea. None, not solid or liquid.  There should also be a moratorium on Shipping. With strict regulations for what should and should not be shipped. This WILL Impact everyone and many very small businesses will need to be compensated, obviously.  
We cant keep doing the same thing expecting different results.
This Demand for Moratorium (supension) Is ProEnvironment, ProUnity, Pro Humanity.
It is Anti-pollution, anti-corporate colonization, anti corruption, anti greed, anti poverty,
The only thing that oil and gas should be used for is basic human needs like heating and food supply, and life saving things such as Hospitals and dialysis, the fabrication of medical equipment and other Life Saving and Essential manufacture purposes.
 There is a way for big companies to do this, and  IT WILL MAKE THEM LOOK GOOD.
Its great Public Relations. And they could avoid going to JAIL.  
 Moratorium Now also includes Jailing Polluters.  
Commenting with Jail the Polluters reinforces this idea in people's minds. Saying it over and over again gets us really believing that this is what should be done to them, BECAUSE IT SHOULD.
THEY SHOULD BE  IN JAIL.
MORATORIUM NOW
 NO EXTRACTION, NO PRODUCTION
JAIL THE POLLUTERS


9.18.2019

What is a feminist?

A Feminist Is  A Person Who Understands that the current social structures of the World are dominated by men, and that there is inequality and injustice toward women and other gendered/sexually oriented people  because of those social structures and ideas. A Feminist Works to deconstruct those current modes and replace them with fair, inclusive Co-created new social structures that allow freedom and protection for all people

9.14.2019

I have seen America, We have plenty of room.

I have been to 38 states, driving or on a train, so I can honestly say that I have seen most of America. Considering the fact that the Entire population of the earth would actually Fit; all be it very uncomfortably (think: ant farm), in the cubic area of the Grand Canyon; I have actually done the math; we have PLENTY of room here. There is absolutely no physical reason for homelessness in the ENTIRE WORLD.  There is ONLY ONE REASON for homelessness and poverty in this world: GREED.  It is not hatred; hatred is a subtext of greed. Hatred is a devisional tool used by the greedy to manipulate others to do the dirty work.
There are visibly poor people in every state in America. Some states have a lot more poverty than others, namely Alabama and Mississippi and Louisiana. They have less homelessness and more poor. The states with least homeless people are Alaska, North Dakota and Wyoming. The places with most are California and New York because they are the wealthiest states. Begging is more "lucrative" in their cities and there are more mentally ill people in a larger population. Up to 30% of homeless people are mentally ill  with no proper sources of care.
I am so sick of the strange comments on facebook about how some people, namely immigrants (but a lot of other groups get named or implied in the typical classist racist anti immigrant rhetoric), dont deserve to be here and dont deserve to be given any rights in detainment centers. It not only offends me,  it TROUBLES  me.
We Can Not Go On in this manner.
Today it was implied that immigrants dont deserve emergency medical attention because it costs taxpayers, also implied was that poor people shouldnt get it either because they are dead beats basically. When pressed they went on to say that immigrants who take their children over the border from far flung places are "bad parents". So I responded with this:
Right, so people who work, that dont get paid well, whose employers dont cover with health insurance. who have no money left over to buy insurance because their rent utilities food laundry and gasoline and car insurance and car repair bills are more than they can afford, those people who are single, or married, and have children or dogs or grandparents, they should just go to hell? And guess what, that IS who is going to the ER,  hundreds of thousands of them all over america, because their other expenses are so high. The percentage of immigrants who use the ER is lower than the plain old american citizens who cant afford insurance. And those people are NOT deadbeat losers. They are working people with BILLS and kids and cars and grandparents or parents that they support. Many states do Not have appropriate services for adults; Social Security does not pay enough for most seniors to live on; Medicare doesnt cover everything. This is Not an immigrant problem. This is a SOCIAL Issue in our country. Im sure none of you live in alabama west Va. tennessee "missip" florida missouri, s and n dakota, indiana new hampshire, arizona... some of the states that dont have good governments and have really bad systems. The lower middle class is suffering there at the hands of their own stupidity. and someday so will all of you as long as you think like your foolish friends and relatives who keep the corporately funded republican agenda alive by spewing this classist racist rhetoric that you think is somehow righteous. You apparently havent watched your own parent or child or friend die because they didnt have proper care or insurance. You apparently have never lost your job and had to use public services to feed your family, or worse, been denied services and LOST Everything and wound up on the street with 4 kids and grandma. And These Immigrants? they WALK sometimes thousands of miles to get away from their shitty lives and their terrible selfish fat cat governments to escape and find a better life. YOU Cant even BEGIN to Understand Them. Stop acting like you Know Anything.  ENOUGH IS ENOUGH. IMMIGRANTS ARE PEOPLE TOO.
Of course, he then told me I was too emotional and making it personal and the thing about being bad parents and I responded:
First of all, this Is a personal issue or You wouldnt care and I wouldnt care. This is a personal ISSUE. Secondly, Immigrants are people and they deserve to be treated humanely and given true emergency care regardless of their status. The issue is what our government and the world governments at large do to make this situation one of impinging on the middle class tax payer in america, read: you. You care because its your dollar. If our government gave you health care with your tax dollar this would be a non issue and we could talk about illegal entry. Lets take this ER thing off the table. Its a non issue because frankly the trillions of dollars of tax payer money that the govt spent on war is really the reason why we cant have national health care today, oh and corporate insurance greed. Not immigration. So your taxes, and your dollars are in the wind because of our governments and the world at large being sick greedy fucks in each others pockets screwing every living person out of a decent life in every way that they can to keep their easy cake jobs and their fancy cars and trophy wives. Not the poor suffering bastards who you just called bad parents. Wait, I just realized, you said that. That is really screwed up. Why am I bothering to to explain anything to you? I mean What??!! Bad parents? Dude... YOU SUCK.
and then I laughed for a few minutes and then I blocked him.
But that isnt the answer to this issue. The Moral Issue of Our LIFETIME  is at hand my friends. We have martyrs already.  IT IS ON.
The other day I was inspired to write this:

IF WE IMAGINE, for a moment,  that the Border is Real, and that our government is justly founded and legitimate and that all of us, its citizens, are not illegal immigrant criminals; if we put aside the fact that the US is full of white people who seized and stole this country from the indigenous tribes thereby making the border an utterly imaginary, non-thing that we think is rational and real...  Then what exactly are we saying here? That for some weird reason... it is acceptable that "other" people are being treated badly in this country by government agencies and police? And this Bad Treatment, what are the parameters by which you measure it's acceptability? And these "other" people, these "aliens", what are the qualifiers for their acceptability?
You're not really ready to make those distinctions are you? To say 39 hours is okay for a child to be locked in a van, but 42 hours, now that would be bad.
 And this idea of "other" is really out of hand folks. Get a grip. WE are the "aliens".
What the hell is wrong with everybody? FACE IT, FACE THIS: WE are the descendants of Criminals, Land Thieves and Murderers. WE ARE THE  ILLEGAL ALIEN IMMIGRANTS. 
It is Outrageous Hubris how we stomp around this place like entitled babies grabbing at things with our sweaty baby hands saying "Thats mine, Gimme that! wah wah" and making putrid messes everywhere on everything and scratching the "other" childrens faces and just having a tantrum ALL of the Time!!!
   
  As per the laws and protocols of the United States Immigration Department you are not illegal if you come to the border and ask to come in, that is an asylum seeker, or a legitimate immigration applicant. You are not even considered illegal if you try to cross without asking, you are then a detainee, awaiting process. You are "illegal" if you got in and didnt tell anyone and stayed and made money, but that still doesnt make you a criminal before the entry, and even if you were a criminal, why should you be treated INHUMANELY? 

If One is rational, One would be predisposed to be considerate and fair to ANY person who comes to the "border" here, bearing in mind that One is ALSO an Illegal Alien, from a long family line of Illegal Aliens, who were quite possibly criminals, land theives, murderers... One might have the utmost humility and respect for those whose may have suffered and died at the hands of one's  forefathers and for those descendants now sitting before you, awaiting Your Judgment.


Futurism equals Climate Disaster

There is a dichotomy of thought in the world, and in many of our own minds, about the future.
On one hand is the notion of a futuristic space travel hover car world. Asimov and Roddenberry et al may be to blame but we perpetuate it.
On the other hand is the ominous eventuality of climate change and climate disaster.
Together they equal dystopia.
The futuristic imaginings can only eventuate as Climate Disaster.
All of the raw material needed and the energy required to Build such a Musk/ Bezos future can only be  created by capitalist Polluting dystopian fascists of our nightmares. Make no mistake, this is the truth.  It is happening right now under our noses while we all dream of the future of floating cars and missions to mars like silly girls dreaming of princes in our pink ruffled bedrooms.
All of the ugly landscapes in all the futuristic science fiction movies and novels already exist and will only continue to grow until there is nothing left. The refugee and prison camps of displaced and policed people Exist all over the world and they continue to grow: Turkey, China, United States, Kashmir, Philippines, Lebanon, India, Kenya, Tanzania, Ethiopia(a mix of countries with either detainment or refugee camps)... the current number of displaced persons is now 70.8 million worldwide. The highest number ever. That is fucking astronomical.  The number of Detained persons in this country is over 350,000.  In China it's over a million; look up Uyghrs. Turkey has over 3 million Syrian refugees. 

So, listen to me... You Have to come to terms with this nonsense fairytale of a futuristic world of floating cars and magical fingertip easy controls and flying into space to meet aliens. It cant happen without the total toxic pollution destruction of our oceans and entire planet and the murder of millions and the police state violent detention and mind control enslavement of 90% of the population. It is Happening Right Now.

You have to ERASE the white privelege concepts of space travel and smart homes from your minds right now because that shit is sending us straight to hell.

Mass production and computers in every room and cell phones and missions to Mars eat up Energy and resources. Energy is made with fossil fuels and Nuclear power. Burning fossil fuels is destroying the Air, destroying the oceans, polluting the land and causing climate disaster. Nuclear power is Dangerous and is currently killing sealife in the pacific and Arctic ocean due to accidents in Japan and Russia.  Resources are ores and minerals Ores are mined. Mines are filthy toxic pollution sites. Toxic Pollution is destroying the Earth and causing climate disaster, there by killing us all.
Just because a bunch of wealthy priveleged white aristocrats wanted to get richer at the turn of the century and made investments in Oil, Steel, Manufacturing and Shipping Does NOT Mean that it was Ever a Good Idea. It was Never a Good Idea.  There are dozens of  toxic metals being mined and smelted! Shipping is Filthy. It is toxic from the manufacture of steel to building of ships to use of oil to power ships to oil spills to death of sea life to polluting of waters to polluting of ports to mistreatment and displacement of indigenous people... Oil is the same list plus oil spills and devastation of wildlife, wilderness and coral reefs. Manufacturing is the pinnacle, inclusive of all the Big 3 polluters plus the incalculable devastation of the entire planet due to Waste including the biggest threat, Plastic Packaging. 
Thats your future folks, if you keep believing the fairytale of futurism. The Fairytale of space travel. The fairy tale of computerised android slavebots to do your bidding. The fairytale that we are creating right now because the white robber barons made up a world for us. We must destroy the ideas they forced onto us with the ease of the toaster and the dishwasher in every home. Now it is the cell phone and the laptop. Soon it will be the robot and the flying car. Please. I beg of you; STOP Dreaming of the Futuristic Future!!
STOP IT NOW.
Start Imagining Better ways to do Better Things, Different Things. The Ideas of the Past Are KIlling Us, Lets Kill those Bad Ideas Instead.
BETTER IDEAS FOR A BETTER FUTURE.
JAIL THE POLLUTERS!  MORATORIUM NOW!

Links to references

https://www.unhcr.org/en-us/figures-at-a-glance.html

 https://storymaps.esri.com/stories/2016/refugee-camps/

https://www.vox.com/future-perfect/2019/7/30/20747028/china-uighur-muslims-internment-camps-forced-labor

https://www.bulatlat.com/2011/10/17/there-are-political-prisoners-in-the-country-up-to-now-%e2%80%93-rights-groups/

7.22.2017

1123 ex post facto reality

I.  "I am he
as you are he
and we are all together".

II.  
I walked down this dirt road
in the dark to siddhartha
and I told him 
you are not my father; I renounce you. 

So, now 
in the golden flicker
of candlelight 
reflecting 
in the water bowls 
in every dark room of my mind
is it my own fault, 
I wonder. 

this could be 1800's new orleans 
I can smell the jasmine 
and feel the white lace dress 
and the binding tightness 
of the spell of righteousness...

of all the places I have been
new orleans was the most 
and least free. 

but I digress,
as always.

III.  bodhisattva

in my youth 
I was an 
optimist,
perhaps now 
I am merely a storm cloud.

yet, 
rainbows come of such things.

IV.  
this is the section about Descartes.

I think. 

V.  
In this post facto reality
I've got going 
truth is, 
I am the same person I was 
the day I first realized who I am. 

VI.
all the many and the none
I walked backwards to get here. 

"but it's all right ma, it's life, and life only"

VII.
that
nautilus shell 
was a birthday gift
I cant recall who gave it to me
but I remember 
suddenly now 
after 40 years
they said 
"It's You, 
or actually, right there in the center is you."
1123 
my birthday 
the first 4 numbers of the Fibonacci sequence

if we apply the golden ratio 
we can see how it is...

a logarithmic spiral. . .. ...  









8.07.2016

Righteousness, religion, revolution: Why the Enlightenment, the founding fathers and Science brought forth a new nation...

 A few centuries ago ...

A few centuries ago there was a time period that is now known as the enlightenment, when observers of natural events had cataloged, researched and created scientific thought and practice, when others had observed society at large, and people specifically, and compiled data to form new social structures that included fairness and equality as their Primary Tenets. It was a time of great need in a world of much greed and tyranny of kings and savage businessmen... It was a time when religion was corrupt and oppressive and seething with politic and hatred... A time when the world could be HAD.

Now is also such a time... and our closed minded idea of living in an advanced Age is exposed to brutal truth. We are being Had.

Slavery is rampant and practiced everywhere Still, it Never went away.
Religions are petty and puerile and mean and selfish.
Politics are festering piles of boiling diarrhea.
Governments are owned by corporations.
The world is a cesspool of polluted filth.

This is a true turning point of humanity.

We either have to change in a dramatic positive way immediately or perish.

The founding fathers brought forth a new nation during this period of enlightenment on the basis of science and fairness and moral philosophy for the betterment of mankind, not freedom of religion per se, that is merely a tenet, not a basis! The righteousness of fundamentalist christians here in the United States is not based on reality. The founders were against governance by the church and tyranny. Righteousness has no place in government. Freedom of religion is just a basic right, not a podium on which to oppress people! Thats what the authors of our founding documents thought.
I mean, How can any human person in this bright future present - How can Any One believe that they are gods chosen person and that they have a right and an obligation to convert people to their fairy tale rule book or condemn them or, worse, to harm and kill them for not believing? ! Shocking does not adequately describe the preposterousness of this idea!!

Populations have been revolting against tyrants and oppressors for so long that One would hope - that in general - Everyone should be aware that Injustice and oppression exist, they are unfair and wicked, they cause all the suffering in the world and they need to be avoided, and put down and deposed at all times. It is The FOUNDING PRINCIPLE OF THIS NATION THAT WE ARE ALL EQUAL HERE AND THAT WE DEMAND OUR NATION TO BE JUST AND FAIR AND COMPASSIONATE. (We have yet to truly live up to it though.)

Fair and Equal is the Standard to which we Aspire. Over the years the people who actually read our foundational documents and study the laws and have integrity, have expanded the rights and freedom of many oppressed people.

Therefore, IT DOES NOT FOLLOW...It does NOT Follow that in This Nation of Free and Equal, Anti Tyranny, Anti Oppression, This Revolutionary, Enlightenment Era, Free Thinking, Nation of Tolerance and Humanitarianism... That we would EVER EVER EVER  EVER Allow fundamentalists to write laws, bribe representatives, steal elections, revoke rights, infiltrate our public opinions, defame and punish people, oppress our citizens, nor allow them to harm and kill those they don't agree with.  It's bad enough that we allowed industrialists and now corporations and war opportunists to run the world forever

But that is exactly what is happening, here and everywhere.  Christian Fundamentalism alone is swelling to an infectious tsunami sized wave of intolerance hate fear blame and Yes, killing that can Not be Allowed at All. NO. Never.

The righteous religious population has swallowed a lie, and they are puking it up on the rest of us. It makes me sick! their motto of helpless ignorant non understanding is this: Ours is not to reason why, ours is but to do and die.... because god said so. It's ridiculous.

I do Not believe in fairies. And I am so happy to be free of such nonsense really. People have the horrible tendency to revert to childish thinking, or passive denial of responsibility to question authority. During the enlightenment when the alleged founding fathers (and their wives, sisters, mothers, girl friends and female acquaintances) THOUGHT About REALITY, they Most Certainly Did Question Authority!!

I ask you now to speak of this to others, to Absolutely Question Authority

And To

 THINK HARDER.   NOW.




2.21.2015

street theater more accessible than obscure blogsites

Violence and greed is consuming us, and every living thing. No one is immune to the horror unfolding every day. We will all perish if we do not totally acknowledge and move to dismantle it.

How do We achieve a complete harmony between all living beings? ... if we still have despicable wealth and widespread untenable poverty, religious hatred, cultural hatred, national wars ...
How? It's Impossible.

Yet, even as I write the word impossible, I know somehow, that it is absolutely not impossible.

Total willing willful happy Harmony IS Absolutely Possible.

Obeyance to religious doctrine and passivity just won't do it though. Violence and domination are completely wrong. Philosophy... meh.

Instagram? Twitter? facebook? youtube?! more like... but not.

I think I'm going to go out on a limb and say Performance Art.
Like the Crucifixion or the parting of the red sea... but you know, Better than that, with way more witnesses.

Demonstration.  Act-ivism,  Performance Activism.

In centuries past, puppet theaters traveled the countryside propagandizing the illiterate... it's a proven method.

Protesting in public is a form of performance art. Occupy Wall Street is performance art.

Performance protesting/activism is the way to go.