1123 ex post facto reality

I.  "I am he
as you are he
and we are all together".

II.  
I walked down this dirt road
in the dark to siddhartha
and I told him 
you are not my father; I renounce you. 

So, now 
in the golden flicker
of candlelight 
reflecting 
in the water bowls 
in every dark room of my mind
is it my own fault, 
I wonder. 

this could be 1800's new orleans 

I can smell the jasmine 

and feel the white lace dress 

and the binding tightness 

of the spell of righteousness...

of all the places I have been

new orleans was the most 

and least free. 

but I digress,

as always.

III.  bodhisattva

in my youth 

I was an 

optimist,

perhaps now 

I am merely a storm cloud.

yet, 

rainbows come of such things.

IV.  

this is the section about Descartes.

I think. 

V.  

In this post facto reality

I've got going 

truth is, 

I am the same person I was 

the day I first realized who I am. 

VI.
all the many and the none

I walked backwards to get here. 

"but it's all right ma, it's life, and life only"

VII.

that

nautilus shell 

was a birthday gift

I cant recall who gave it to me

but I remember 

suddenly now 

after 40 years

they said 

"It's You, 

or actually, right there in the center is you."

1123 

my birthday 

the first 4 numbers of the Fibonacci sequence

if we apply the golden ratio 

we can see how it is...

a logarithmic spiral. . .. ...