7.24.2013

PTSD, and the Redemption

I am sitting here in my air conditioning... thinking about the world.

The north pole is a lot warmer this year, with more open water than ever instead of ice floes. I saw a photograph of a tornado they claimed was 4 miles wide. The southern states are restricting voting rights. People are being arrested for trying to change things for the better. Plastic is everywhere and driving me crazy. Crazy. I think about it constantly. The birds and fish and dolphin bellies all filled with little bits of lethal plastic.

At the bottom of all of these horrors is greed, and hate.

What can be done? How in the world will this stop?

I mean it could just go on this way, until the end, the horrible end, the disastrous end.

But, what about stopping it before that horror?
What about stopping it?

How can we stop greed and hate? and all their ugly repercussions...

I mean stop it forever.

At the basis of this question is optimism.

At the basis of this question is a fundamental belief.

It is deeper and more reverent that anything written or touted by all the religious and non religious, past and present.

The story of Adam tries in vain to tell it. But, the truth is not that we were thrown out of paradise for trying to know truth, but instead, that we have not entered it because we haven't grasped the truth yet. Not in the weird Buddhist enlightenment, all is illusion, bullshit sense though, but in a very clear tangible way; we are right here now and this is real.

We are right here now and this is real.
WWJD?  WWBD?

They would be so pissed off.

SO Pisssssed Off!

The orthodox Jews have this concept of mitzvah; for every good deed you do you are bringing the time of the Meshiach closer... but they ignore and justify using millions of plastic utensils and styrofoam plates.... (that is exempt because it is more important for them to be kosher than it is to stop wasting and polluting.)

Strange values. I think that preparing the way for the messiah includes cleaning and caring for the planet. This is everyone's planet, not just one person or group, and don't forget all the animals you are killing every day... because you can't mix meat and milk or you have to have a new lexus. Whatever your weird motivation is in this life... IT IS BULLSHIT.

THAT'S RIGHT I AM TELLING YOU NOW THAT EVERY MATERIAL THING YOU THINK IS IMPORTANT, AND EVEN YOUR ESOTERIC, LESS TANGIBLE WANTS AND NEEDS
 ARE BULLSHIT.

I have been sitting here in my air conditioning, BORED OUT OF MY MIND, and kind of worried about that. I don't have a car and I live in the boonies so I have a lot of time on my hands... what's your excuse?

Anyway, I had been writing a lot, but then in May I just stopped. I haven't written a word. I am overwhelmed by the state of the world and by the idea that I alone have the power to change it all. I am in shock over that knowledge. It sounds idiotic. It sounds megalomaniacal. But I mean, you alone have the power to change the entire world forever, and so do I and everyone else... and that is so, SO Shocking to us... We just can't handle it at all. So we sit in our air conditioning, and watch netflix and facebook and youtube filling ourselves with all the knowledge of all of the known universe.. and Do Nothing.

This is not to say that all of you do nothing ... no, I know that you are thinkers and talkers and activists and readers and recyclers...

But you are also in shock, traumatic shock.

I know, because I am in traumatic shock EVERY DAY and I know the signs.

It is amazing how much we actually do, in the condition we are in. But we are tired from running after the brass (read: plastic) ring... and trying to be good recyclers etc.

I once thought that emotional exhaustion was the worst. But spiritual exhaustion is worse.
I am both emotionally and spiritually exhausted. And so are you no matter what you say or think or feel to the contrary. At this point in our spiritual evolution, we are all as traumatised as a starving, emaciated, orphaned baby orangutan found in the tread of a giant tractor in a deforested rain forest/palm oil plantation.

We are no longer Bedouin nomads fearing enslavement, or filthy malnourished illiterate beggars who need religion and fear of God. .... In our country we are all geniuses and kings in comparison to the first Jews and the first Christians and the first Buddhists, and most of the world has more access to knowledge and information than EVER. We are in a new evolutionary period of spiritual awareness and development. And it is much more demanding of us.

All of the religions of the world failed to lead us to redemption and salvation and world peace. They fail across the board!!! Why? Because they are Divisive!! And persecutory, AND Limited, and exclusive and excluding, and righteous and unbelievable and require proof and lineages, and supernatural bushes and dragons and messiahs and apocalypses and revelations and prophesies and nonsense, ad infinitum. It's old crazy bullshit claiming God said this and that and God told me but not you and God this and Buddha said this (read: Corporeal Existence) is all just going to pass away or God will make it disappear and God will save us, blah blah blah bullshit... women can't wear revealing clothes, they can't be priests, they can't be rabbis, even the Bahai's blew it on women and homosexuals.... Religions Blew It.
Soooo...
It is OUT OF THEIR HANDS NOW.

I, Personally, am taking it out of their hands. They can follow me, and you, but they can't lead anymore, not ever again.

Again, I ask you... What can we do to take greed and hatred out of the human experience permanently?

Realize that you are not a barbarian, you are not going to die if your neighbor lives, you will not be struck by lightning if you fornicate or go to town unchaperoned....

The foolish nonsense that threatens us through religious oppression has brought us to a point of disgusting hatred and greed. The good tenets of Judaism are outweighed by their exclusivity, the good tenets of Christianity are far outweighed by their pedophilia and homophobia and Papal wealth, the good tenets of Islam are far Far outweighed by their xenophobic hatred and gender oppression and sectarianism. The good tenets of Buddhism are outweighed by their ridiculous concept of this reality being transient and illusory and therefore what? That just gives us All an undeserved Pass to not care if we fail to do the right thing.

NONE OF US DESERVES A PASS IF WE FAIL TO DO THE RIGHT THING.
I DON'T WANT JESUS' OR BUDDHA'S FORGIVENESS AND I DON'T WANT TO LIVE TO SEE THE DAY OF GODS REDEMPTION.

I WANT MY REDEMPTION NOW AT MY OWN HANDS.

I WANT THE SALVATION OF ALL MANKIND AND ALL SPECIES AND THE ENTIRE EARTH, NOW, AT MY OWN HANDS.

RIGHT NOW, RIGHT THIS VERY SECOND.
BECAUSE I AM EXHAUSTED. BECAUSE I AM TRAUMATISED. BECAUSE ALL OF US ARE SICK AND TIRED AND ABOUT TO FALL DOWN AND FAIL.....

HOW DO I MAKE THIS A REALITY? HOW DO I ALONE BRING ABOUT THE SALVATION OF ALL HUMANITY TODAY?

THAT IS EXHAUSTING.

Can I say to you now that I Know this is true and possible and my true destiny? without your scorn? disbelief, laughter, rejection? Yeah, I can. Because it is your true destiny as well. We are actually the salvation of humanity. You and Me.  Believe this now, and forever with every fiber of your being. You are the salvation and the way. You are the new dawn, the redemption of the entire planet. You and you alone, and me, and everyone else. Know it, feel it think it Be it all day every day, even when you are tired and sad and lonely. remember that you are the way and the life you are becoming that which you are becoming you are the reckoning you are the light you are love you are You Are. And so am I and everyone else. When you meet someone in your day remember that they are the saviour, the messiah, the prophet, the true and only god, the buddha, the redeemer and so are you and everyone else. This, as far as I know, is the highest form that one can exist as in all human concepts, so it must be the first and the last and only definition of A Being, any being, ALL BEINGS. The elephant the snake the termite the Buddha all must be on the same level or there can be no real Equality ... and definitely no Redemption.

(yes, I kill spiders sometimes, and bacteria, and I eat chicken, and vegetables; one heavy discourse at a time please.)

There is a deep flaw in our concept of ourselves that has been perpetuated for thousands of years, that we are inherently flawed. This is not true. Everything we do is a choice. A Choice. Perhaps circumstantial, but a choice none the less. That is how we came up with the idea of redemption to begin with. The belief that we are flawed and punished, banished out of Eden, in sin... unenlightened, etc. But We Are Not Flawed. We Are The Messiah, Every One of us is Equal to each other and to the highest form which is God, and the lowest form... parameceum? bozons?  You know it... I know it... we all know it.
So, Accept Your Power, Your True Identity.

Choose to believe that you and I and everyone else are the saviours of the earth. And Choose to be that deep in your soul, and Choose to DO IT. CHOOSE TO SAVE THE PLANET WITH ME AND EVERYONE ELSE... even if you do nothing today and nobody you know does anything tomorrow, we are beginning to Learn to Believe that we are going to be... TO BE THE REDEMPTION RIGHT NOW THIS SECOND AT OUR OWN HAND.

CHOOSE TO BEGIN TO LEARN TO BELIEVE THAT YOU ARE GOING TO BE THE REDEMPTION OF ALL HUMANITY AND EVERY SPECIES AND THE ENTIRE PLANET RIGHT NOW AT YOUR OWN HAND WITH ME AND EVERYONE ELSE.

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